Melodramatic, Much?

Okay, so. The last post? A bit melodramatic. Sorry about that. In my own defense, though, I was down.And there's validity in what I said, but alas. I could have been a teenybit not so oh-em-gee-this-is-the-end-of-the-world about it.

So honestly, my stomach is in knots today and I don't know what to do. I feel such like the "cool friend that happens to come with a few perks" and that makes me sad and confused. I'm not the type to ever want to be under a man 24/7, but I happen to like this one and would at least like to hang out with him more than 1 night a week. I know I should see this as good - if he wanted to hang out all the time I'd be running for the hills - but it's really, really hard. And because of that, I'm not sure how I should be anymore. When I see him today, I'll likely want to be hold back & be a bit reserved, when all I REALLY want to do is spend a solid 10 minutes in a hug & kiss.

Last night he said something to the effect of "you've shown me a lot of love lately, what's up with that?".

::heartledge::

I answered something along the lines of I care about him & just wanted to hang out. BIG understatement. But what to do? I can't won't force him to hang out. I want to talk to him about it, but I don't want to put myself out there in that way.

Logically, I KNOW he's just busy. I KNOW he likes me. I KNOW that these worries are unfounded.

But emotionally? Oh, emotionally. I feel like crying.

Here's hoping for reassurance before class today. I'll post the update later.