7 minutes of video, some notecards & a sweet smile.

I just watched Ben Breedlove's videos. And I cried.

I'm still processing why. Is it because he seems like such a sweet & mature kid for his age, taken from us too soon? Or because he knew waaaay more than most people and at least he's at peace now?

I don't know.

Let me be clear. Death is painful. No matter how prepared WE are as survivors, it's still hard. I'm not saying I'm happy he's gone...I'm simply saying that the tears I spill could be because he knows he's in a better place now, and that was so evident in his last video, how could I be sad when he's not?

This baby was 18 years old. Whenever you say something as profound as "I wish I NEVER woke up," and you're not talking about a suicide attempt..........

He was ready.

Wow.

So profound, so wise, so...beautiful.

Ben, there are a lot of people struggling to make sense of your death. People who miss you & love you & will struggle every day for who knows how long.

I'm a stranger and I'm so glad that you touched me in a little over 7 minutes of video, some notecards & a sweet smile.

You will be missed.

Rest in peace.