A follow up to the post I don't even remember writing.

So, I just read the post from last night that I don't even remember writing and thought "perfect! I'll just pick up from there."

Last night, I had two of my friends over. As I look back on it, the night pretty much sucked overall. :-/ I love my friends but the conversations last night got a little bit mean, a little bit exclusive & just blah.

There were three conversations threads of the night: the ones about marriage, the ones about parent relationships & the ones about everything else.

Thread One: I'm not married or remotely close to it (honestly, I'm sick of the words married, marriage, husband, wife & wedding right now) so that's that one. Lots of time spent talking about it with nothing contributed from my end. I'm a little (lot) bitter but I also understand that these are big things in my friends lives, so I try really, really hard to be understanding. Then bitch about it on here.

Thread Two: The conversations about parent relationships is the one I'm left pondering this morning. One of my friends in particular said some really mean things about my relationship with my mom and I'm trying to process how I feel about it. It's not the typical hurt feelings or anxiety feeling...I'm honestly not sure what I feel. Insulted? A bit embarrassed? I don't know. What I do know is that I only have one mom and no, our relationship is not perfect, but it's also not open for criticisms for others. It's that whole "I can talk about my family but the second you do all bets are off" theory. Mom's overbearing and overprotective. I KNOW THIS. I LIVE THIS. But she and I are very close, we do talk all the time and I think it's rude that for people to feel like they can have say so into whether or relationship is "normal".

I've been struggling all morning with what to do. I think I want to tell her (my friend) - not because I want an apology or anything, but because I simply want her to know that it's not okay. And I think I will because a conversation we just had about how people think things roll off me suddenly popped into my head.

The third conversation thread was just random but one topic is how I'm sooooo destined to be successful in Corporate America. Will people stop saying that? I mean, it's nice. The opposite could be worse, I could be a failure. But I don't want to be known as just a career woman. It's something that personally bothers me, like it insinuates that I should take solace in that because actually doing graphic design & being a wife/mother aren't in my cards. I don't like being pigeon holed, especially about something I could basically care less about.

Like I said, the night just sucked overall. Happens sometimes. :-/

Anyhoo, I'm a little bit still buzzed, not sure I'm making much sense, and definitely not happy to be at work. Hoping the day passes quickly even though my computer took 25 minutes to boot up and that's not a sign of good things to come.

I'm ending this long, rambly post now to go do some work related things. As soon as I finish blog scouring & pay my rent. Oh, and read the news. :)